It’s that time of year…again. A time when loving memories of family togetherness in days gone by are tangled in disarray with equally strong remembrances of anger, guilt, frustration, and disappointment. My stomach used to constrict at the first sign of Thanksgiving fixings in the market, quickly followed by massive cramps as excessive Christmas ornamentation materialized everywhere.
Gracias a Dios, it seems that I have ascended to a new reality, where my attention is focused inwards, and my intent is to forgive and love myself, first and foremost. That’s a really hard concept for a serial co-dependent/empath to embrace. I used to ignore my feelings and needs and perceptions in favor of those of everyone else in my sphere, no matter how peripheral. Didn’t matter. My mother or the clerk at the grocery store. Their reality became mine, and my reality became a nightmare. It’s no wonder I attracted cancer, having internalized so much negative energy from so many sources with no healthy outlets to speak of. Note to self…negative energy kills!
The fantastic news for me at this moment is that I have found a place of peace and serenity, a space in time where all external energies flowing through and around me are not mine to hold onto or manage. I simply acknowledge them and let them pass on by. So liberating on so many levels.
K and I have gone through so much together, especially this past year, and we are exponentially stronger because of it. We are not defined by what has happened to us, and even more importantly, by the negative projections of others onto us. We no longer feel incomplete because of the fractured dysfunctionality of our respective families. We are are now free to attract positive energies of people who have and will become family, family by choice.
As I reflect on this past year, I am awed by how much we have been enriched by our travels, experiencing the extraordinary energies of so many diverse peoples. And now that we’re home, we feel blessed and grateful to be alive and to be loved by so many beautiful souls from around the world.
So on this Thanksgiving Eve, we send you loving energy wherever you may be, whether you’re eating turkey or tofu, whether you’re with family or family-by-choice. Enjoy each moment, because it will soon be just another memory. Make it a good one.
Namaste. 💔
Nov. 27, 2019
Judy Richter 