I awoke this morning a bit out of sorts for unknown, or more accurately, subconscious reasons. I was worried about things in the future, amorphous, intangible things, things mostly out of my control. Death and taxes come to mind, especially on this eve of TAX day. But why this malaise, I asked myself? I then turned on my computer and got even more tweaked by a FB post of a person who had recently hurt me and several others in a very selfish, self-obsessed way. I started to feed into that negativity, much to my dismay. I then very consciously made the decision to let go of my negative cloud of emotions. They were hurting no one but me. I used to hold onto and internalize so much negativity, and it had no outlet so it stayed in my heart and soul and festered. In order to shift energies and change old patterns, I turned to meditation and exercise this morning.
I chose a Deepok Chopra Gratitude mediatation, and am energized and HAPPY because of it. I used to take so many things for granted in my life. Things as basic and fundamental as my breath, my heart beat, my cells regenerating – all without any conscious assistance from me. Sounds a tad woo woo and new agey, I know, but now that I am meditating, I understand the absolute value of practicing Gratitude every day for all things in my life no matter how great or how small. I appreciate the value of tuning into the energies in the universe that swirl through our bodies and souls that can wreak havoc and/or deliver joy. Much is within our power to direct these energies, with conscious and positive thought from our minds, bodies and spirits. At least that’s what I choose to believe and live my life accordingly. What’s the alternative, after all? For me it used to be to dwell in a swirling fog of toxic energy mostly generated by others over which I had no control. I was a helpless, hopeless sponge and had no defenses or boundaries to protect myself. But now I do.
With an amped up Attitude of Gratitude, I have resolved to create a “Gratitude” jar and place it on our kitchen table. As a kid we used to have a Swear Word jar on our fridge, but this new concept seems so much more positive and relevant. I want to be aware and conscious of all that I have, and give thanks for all of it. Every day. My family, my beautiful home, my loving puppies, my wonderful friends, my creativity, my art…the list seems to be quite long and bounteous, now that I consciously think about it. I’m hoping H will join me in contributing to the Gratitude Jar so that we can count our blessings and make what we have enough every day of our lives.
Okay, so now I’m off to Zumba my way to a sweaty but rejuvenated self!
With love, light and GRATITUDE…
Apr. 14, 2015
Judy Richter 