I realized as soon as I hit enter on my last post that I had not accurately conveyed my feelings re FEAR. When I reread it, it sounded so morosely depressing. That was not my intention. What I wanted to share is that I am mesmerized by the epiphany I experienced in meditation that seemingly all of my negative emotions (anger, regret, hurt, rage, hostility, indignation, irritation, jealousy, etc.) can be reduced, layer by onion skin layer, to the simple emotion of fear.
The radiant energy that continues to manifest to me right now to counter my Fear (in all its forms) is Forgiveness. I thought that I had that one down. Perhaps in concept, I realize now, but not 100% from the heart, genuine, forever forgiveness. My goal for the rest of my life is to heal and prevent recurring illness, to be of service to others and, most importantly, to grow spiritually. As part of this journey, I must learn to forgive. Truly forgive. Myself and all those who have hurt me in some perceived way, shape or form. Feeling a bit exposed here, but I am baring my soul in these most intimate of ways to be of service to those on a similar journey who might benefit from my musings, which in turn will bring me joy.
So, Forgiveness. I now understand that the receiver of forgiveness does not have to accept it, let alone return it. It amazes me how difficult it is for many to say “I’m sorry”, and next to impossible to forgive. I used to believe that you could not have forgiveness unless and until both sides forgave each other and the “transgression” was mutually resolved, with justice prevailing and everyone living happily ever after. No wonder I have a lot of “Forgiveness” work to do! From this point forward, I am going to focus my energies on forgiveness from and to my heart for healing and love. I no longer have any expectations of others.
As Mother Theresa said, “If we really want to love, we must learn to forgive.”
Sending love, light and forgiveness…
Jan. 30, 2015
Judy Richter 