The emotions of the past few weeks have been draining and have challenged me to my very core. But I must resolve to remain true to my own truth and integrity. I must continue on my journey.
I went horseback riding in Sedona this week, and had the joyful experience of meeting and riding a magnificent animal named Brogan. It’s been well over a year, okay, maybe even two or three years, since I sat upon the back of a horse. The gentle yet powerful energy of this horse coursed through my body and recharged my soul with much needed love. I reveled in shoveling horse poo, feeding them, hosing them down, and brushing them with loving strokes. According to Ted Andrews, encountering horses indicates a time of movement, a time to stretch your freedom and power. Movement does not always come easy, nor is it always within your comfort zone. I must remember that as I keep my eyes forward.
I have three more chemo treatments to go, and as great as that is, it is also frustrating. I am tired of this journey. I am tired of the pains and suffering, the emotional rollercoaster ride, and having my routines and life dictated by my Mayo schedule. It’s all good, it’s almost over, I know, I know. And yet, I feel heavy with sadness. I have realized, once again, that it’s true, you cannot go home…you can only move forward. How many times must we repeat life’s lessons before we get it. I mean, really, really get it? As I struggle ahead, as I know I must, I am grateful to have the Prayer for Divine Love back in my life, and I call for the power of Divine Love to be magnified within my Heart and world daily. So be it. And much love and gratitude to Brogan, Meaghan, Zack and Ezekial, who brought much joy into my weary heart.
Sep. 18, 2013
Judy Richter 