Well, I can, with certitude, say it is in Arizona. It was an absolutely gorgeous, balmy, sunny day today. I took the “day off”, so to speak, and headed for the hills for some one on one time with Mother Nature. I always feel 1000% better when I do, and I wanted to really charge my positive energy cells before manana. As I walked in a beautiful meadow admiring the majestic cottonwoods, my first impression was that they were all still lying dormant, stripped naked of life for the winter hibernation. As my hypertension from the city and chemo and anxiety ramped down several notches, I looked up at the cottonwoods again – only to be delightfully surprised to see some clumps of green and yellow buds, way, way, way up high. The longer I gazed up at the tree tops, the more signs of budding life I saw. I was overcome with joy and moved to tears at the sight. I saw my poor, chemo riddled body in those majestic trees with barren limbs. At first glance, it looks (or at least feels) dead and dying. But if you look closely enough, you can see and feel life poking its tentative, fragile, infantile head out of the darkness. I feel the growth and rebirth happening in my body even now, even with the 2 last, and perhaps worst, rounds to go. I have promised myself to do better this time, to believe in a happy and healthy future and to let love and light into my life even at the darkest hours I am facing. So, I am off to the airport to pick up Annie…hopefully we will have a silly, girly, giggly pajama party tonight, as we have so many times in the past. Love and light to all.
Feb. 26, 2013
Judy Richter 